Hold On Tight

becuase I am not letting go that easily. Not now. Not tomorrow. Not ever. I spoke to him of the vision from that night of the fire flies. The vision of our future, our child, our family. It is that vision I hold on to when things get hard. Things do get hard.

I do not regret being his mate. It has brought me far more joy than sorrow, but it has had its moments where it would be far easier to walk away than stand beside him. My Mate hears the winds. He bridges the gap between spirit world and this world. Sometimes being that bridge is hard on him, and it can be just as hard on me.

It can make him doubt himself, his sanity, his grip on today's world. The grip on the here and now. It makes him uncertain, and it always makes him try to pull away from me. I have to fight the hardest then to make him see I am not going anywhere. I am not like those others who claimed to care for him only to hurt and abandon him. I am not those who he cared for that he lost to their inability to understand him. I am me. I am Jaella. I am not going anywhere unless it is because I have drawn my last breath.

I know our future is going to be a good one. It is not going to be an easy one. It is going to have its challenges, its hardships, its fears, its worries, its hurts, its joys and its sorrows. It will be a LIFE - and life is not always one of joy. I am not going to give up on him, or that future, that vision - just because he is different. I would not be with him if he were not different! It is the things about him that I love that make him stand apart. Loving is accepting. I accepted those things about him when he found his way in my heart. He is just going to have to eventually understand that - he is in there. He's not going to be thrown out, and I am not going to abandon him to the loneliness of having only the Winds and Spirits for company.

I will hold tight to that vision. Ru' was right. That man owes me some babies.