I miss T'zuri

I really do miss her. I miss her more than words can say. I have other friends, and I have those who are coming to be friends. It is different. None of us are the same, and so none of them are like T'zuri, and my friendship with them is completely different, too.

I wish I could have her here to talk to. I would tell her about Ru', about the things going on, about the time with the Kassar. I would tell her the things I have kept inside from all but Sahli. I can't even share these things with Fonce. He is not a woman, and he just would not understand. I feel alone. I lost my best friend, and it is an ache that will not just vanish. Life goes on, but it does not mean that we don't miss the past that is gone.

I wonder where she is. I wonder if she is happy. I wonder if it was worth all that she left behind to make her new life. She was not taken by the Kassar. She was not or I would have found her. I find myself wondering where she is. Sometimes I get angry that she is not here. I feel if she cared she would still be here. I don't share this anger with anyone. I don't know who to talk to about it. Who do I burden with my own darkness? I just know - it hurts. We were closer than sisters. Or, I thought we were.