to my time as a prospect.
To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
Elbert Hubbard
~~~
I have to say that while I was a prospect I often wondered how many people were being nice to my face while spewing venom to my back. Unfortunately, that sort of two faced behavior is painfully common with people. The people of the First Wagons don't stop being human just because they are of the First Wagons. They are still going to have the same foibles and flaws as any other grouping of people. I can honestly say there was really only one person who left me with no shade of doubt in my mind where I stood with him or her. Granted, my footing with that woman wasn't the best in the world but at least I knew it. More importantly, I heard it from her own mouth. I am talking about Kamchak's woman Chay here. No, we didn't get off on the right foot. We might or might not ever get along. That doesn't mean I don't respect the fact that she was plain out with what was going on in her mind. She didn't do the whole smile to my face and stab me in the back sort of thing. She's just pretty much a straight spear. If she ever did say anything bad about me while I wasn't around its not like I didn't hear it from her lips first. You just have to respect that in a person. You have to respect a person that has the gumption, the conviction, and the flat out integrity to do that. Its so much easier to be a snide she-sleen behind someone's back. I don't figure that's her way. If she don't like you, trust me, you will know it very quickly. You won't hear about it from the rumor mill, either. You'll hear it straight from the kaiila's mouth. I haven't seen her around. She is a Hunter after all. Winter's a lean time, and I'm sure her hands are full with making certain that there's enough to go around.
I don't know that she and I will ever recover from that bad footing thing. I also know that I don't have to like everyone that shares the fire with me. I don't even have to love them. It won't stop me from shedding my own blood, if it came to it, to help them out if need be. Like them or not, love them or not, we're all Tuchuk. That means something right there. She had some harsh things to say, and well a few of them were actually helpful. Maybe it wasn't the most gentle and loving way to say 'hey, you are too damn shy and jittery' but it did get the point across. Kind of like a spear gets its point across. Straight to the heart of the matter. I don't know if that's what she intended to do or not. I do know that oddly enough, she was helpful in me starting to come out of my shell. Funny how it works. You can learn the best lessons in the worst of ways. I do hope that she, Kamchak, and their family are doing all right. I like Cana, and Falon. I don't know Lachlan that well, but I've liked him the few times I've met him. Its a good family. Even they don't always get along, but it don't make them any less a family at the end of the day. That's just one more thing that I respect.
To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
Elbert Hubbard
~~~
I have to say that while I was a prospect I often wondered how many people were being nice to my face while spewing venom to my back. Unfortunately, that sort of two faced behavior is painfully common with people. The people of the First Wagons don't stop being human just because they are of the First Wagons. They are still going to have the same foibles and flaws as any other grouping of people. I can honestly say there was really only one person who left me with no shade of doubt in my mind where I stood with him or her. Granted, my footing with that woman wasn't the best in the world but at least I knew it. More importantly, I heard it from her own mouth. I am talking about Kamchak's woman Chay here. No, we didn't get off on the right foot. We might or might not ever get along. That doesn't mean I don't respect the fact that she was plain out with what was going on in her mind. She didn't do the whole smile to my face and stab me in the back sort of thing. She's just pretty much a straight spear. If she ever did say anything bad about me while I wasn't around its not like I didn't hear it from her lips first. You just have to respect that in a person. You have to respect a person that has the gumption, the conviction, and the flat out integrity to do that. Its so much easier to be a snide she-sleen behind someone's back. I don't figure that's her way. If she don't like you, trust me, you will know it very quickly. You won't hear about it from the rumor mill, either. You'll hear it straight from the kaiila's mouth. I haven't seen her around. She is a Hunter after all. Winter's a lean time, and I'm sure her hands are full with making certain that there's enough to go around.
I don't know that she and I will ever recover from that bad footing thing. I also know that I don't have to like everyone that shares the fire with me. I don't even have to love them. It won't stop me from shedding my own blood, if it came to it, to help them out if need be. Like them or not, love them or not, we're all Tuchuk. That means something right there. She had some harsh things to say, and well a few of them were actually helpful. Maybe it wasn't the most gentle and loving way to say 'hey, you are too damn shy and jittery' but it did get the point across. Kind of like a spear gets its point across. Straight to the heart of the matter. I don't know if that's what she intended to do or not. I do know that oddly enough, she was helpful in me starting to come out of my shell. Funny how it works. You can learn the best lessons in the worst of ways. I do hope that she, Kamchak, and their family are doing all right. I like Cana, and Falon. I don't know Lachlan that well, but I've liked him the few times I've met him. Its a good family. Even they don't always get along, but it don't make them any less a family at the end of the day. That's just one more thing that I respect.
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