Sorrow and Loss

can hurt so much.

Only those who avoid love can avoid grief. The point is to learn from grief and remain vulnerable to love. --John Brantner

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I can't fix it. I can't take the hurt away. There is not a word or thing I can do that will help ease the sorrow that Sahli is feeling right now. Things were bad between his brother and him, they had been bad for a while. He still wished me to be introduced to Beu, and I agreed that I would like to. This is the brother of the man I love, and as that he is a welcome part of my family.

We arrived on a horrible tragedy. I still am not sure exactly what happened, but when we arrived Sahli found his brother within his wagon, dead. I fear that the Warrior may have taken his own life. This man that dared to cal Sahli names, to demean him, was one who took his own life. I said none of these things. It is not the time, and it is not the place. My anger is because even in his death he has hurt one I care for so deeply.

Now, all I can do is let him know he is not alone. I can only be here for him. I can listen. I can talk, and I can encourage him to continue to live. I can help with the pyre arrangements, and I can help him just try to remember that each day dawns new for those of us still here. I have not lost a brother, but I have lost recently. The lesson of each day is a new day, and that each day is not to be wasted has been driven painfully home to me. Death, it seems to have become a constant companion. Life is always harsh and uncertain, but this is not the usual. I hope that it will be some time before the next one takes to the Skies. We need to time to live. We need time to be alive. I need to remind him that though loss hurts we need to embrace our own lives all the more.